Boyz II Men sums it up well, with this song!
We had two difficult goodbyes this past weekend one in which I will share and the other Terah will share with you all in a week.
For the past four years Earl has been living with us. This past Saturday night, due to the fact we have to be out of our home at the end of November, he had to move out. I knew it was coming, but it is one of those things you put to the back of your mind, trying to ignore it.
This past Saturday night Earl drove up with a trailer and began loading up all of his stuff. It was a tough night. As we were working in packing the trailer, we did alot of "small talk" trying to ignore the deep emotions that were just below the surface.
As soon as we finished loading the trailer, Earl and his brother left, leaving Christi and I in his empty room alone. Tears now inevitably coming to the surface, I quickly gave Christi a hug and made my way halfway down the stairs and then I STOPPED. I turned around and slowly reentered the room...
I was so broken. Tears were flowing heavily now and I walked over to Christi and she hugged me tightly. I told her how much it hurt to see him leave.
Although I know he is in great place and God is moving mightily in his life, I did not want him to go. The goodbyes are ever so hard for me and there are more that await us.
But that is just it, obeying Christ in your call, whatever it may be, isn't always pretty. Sometimes it hurts, a hurt that runs deep into the soul. From this point on, I am not going to try to be "tough" and hold back the tears. They are going to flow!
Why? Because, God gave me the gift of mourning loss. When people walk into your lives and get all over you, it should hurt when they leave the "known' of your life.
To Earl:
I love you son and you make your mom and dad very proud of you! It does hurt for things to change, but you will always hold a special place.
Love
Mom and Dad
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